black american crayola spectrum: the first color

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red.
i see johnny walker red.
i see my first red table tennis racket.

it saved my life.

hours of sweat, spit, and swear on its wooden handle,
searching for my place in a game  instead of a woman
      for days  noons  twilights
it kept me sane enough to be narrowminded on the ball and its court.

i left it all on that field then, 

but yet there’s still something left for me to sacrifice.